bloomings

UNDER CONSTRUCTION.

mushaboom

lookin' at me.

Some photographs from February.
Whenever I can find a scanner and I get more prints I'll upload all of my b&w film photos.


On the way to Michigan.


My sister.


My mother.





Batman. :D



We had Vietnamese coffee and caught up on the time we've missed from each others lives. It was good to see an old friend again, and it makes me happy knowing that the people I meet and become close with still are there for me. People are showing their true colors to me every day.



Then we continued our day and met some new friends.


Yellow stars.






I wonder how many pictures I have like this.








Sara and I went on a little adventure. We are both ready for the snow and the bitter cold to be gone.








Prince St. Cafe. :)






Vitamins.


Jam session. I played the tambourine.













That's it.

February never fails to always be one of the worst months of my life. I just never know what is going to happen. Although this month has definitely had it's down sides, the parts I photographed reminds me that there is still always a good. I am still alive. Spring is almost here.

I am finally getting stable, fast, reliable internet connection this week so look for more updates, and revamping my entire site. It's going to be sweet having the world at my fingertips again! I kind of feel like I've lost a little bit of touch with "reality". I won't ever stop adventuring, though. It's going to be a long time before I ever settle.

Well, time to do it all over again.

love,
Leah

o hay

My mind won't let me sleep! But unlike yesterday, I'm not really able to put my thoughts directly into words. I'll just muse. Tomorrow will be good.
I heard a great song today.

love,
Leah

winterslove-

"ALL YOU NEED IS LOVE.
LOVE IS ALL YOU NEED."


It's time I get myself focused. I know I've made mistakes. I get carried easily away by the promises of love, and the affairs of things I cannot control. What I know I can control is my actions, and where I want them to take me. I have been hiding for the past week or so. I've been spending all of my time in my own consciousness. With doing that, I found the only way for me to be happy is if I am completely aware of who I am, how I feel, what I want, and understand I cannot (nor do I want to) control other people, their emotions, and make them see my point of view. I know I am shy, and I know I tend to push people away, but without the people I know, and the people I love, I wouldn't be who I am. And I am still trying to figure who I am. I know that at the end of the day, it won't matter what art I have created, what photos I've taken, because what would it be without an audience? Another point of view?

I keep looking at the grand scheme of things. How the human race is such a small flicker in time. How one day the sun will die and the Earth will be stardust again. How people are just civilized animals, living instinctively without any idea where their thoughts or dreams come from, or why we even exist. I wish we could just look at one another and realize this - no one is going to make it out alive. Why are we living in such turmoil? Instead, we should be living in a world where we can create what we dreamt, and understand that everyone is an individual with their own dreams. Maybe the reason why we exist is so we can learn from one another. Everyone, right now who are alive with me in this point of time, are all aging and experiencing. I don't want to push them away, when they are the only ones I can actually communicate with and learn from. There will always be things we will never possibly understand - we can hypothesize and make theories, but we can never truly KNOW. But what I do actually know is my feelings, and my dreams, and what my reality is. It may not be the same as yours, but I will share it with you if you'd like, and you can show me yours, if you want. And we can learn from eachother, because, thats what I think we are here to do. Who would I be without the people I loved?... My family? My friends? What would be my purpose? Love is all you need.


Whew, glad I got that into words finally. I've been feeling better.
"Thought is real. Physical is the illusion. Ironic, huh?"


LOVE,
Leah

red house

I have a bad, bad feeling that my baby don't live here no more.


Good thing I decided to drink coffee at midnight.



love,
Leah

hibernate

I just want to sleep the winter away.
Yet, I find myself awake and wandering, when I wish I could be asleep. I've had an odd past few days. I feel sick, conflicted, timid, but there's still a little hope. There's always spring. I need to survive the blues. I feel so cold.

Goodnight, world. Whoever is reading this.



love,
Leah

bad romance.

I don't want to be friends.

Decided to take at least one photograph a day. I know it's not much of a goal, but with everything else I'm trying to get started and accomplished right now I think it's pretty reasonable. It'll give me an excuse, and I am the only one that can push myself and make myself do things. I am the only one that can control my future.

I did lil bit of traveling today, just enough to get me out of the winter blues.
Musing eases my mind.

Oh! I got a tattoo!

I eventually want to get it a bit more detailed and shaded a bit, but I am very happy with it. I couldn't have asked for a better experience. Life is wild.
I am off to dreamland.

Goodnight,
love,
Leah

owen bradley

souvenirs.